Easter Sunday

currently listening: "You" by Hillsong United
5:34 a.m. yea, I'm up at this time trying to write my essay for Religious Studies. This is the time I start to meditate. Everyone's asleep. The house is extremely quiet. Cynthia is sleeping downstairs. I have the room to release my thoughts into the midst of the air.  Right now, it's a good kind of meditation. This song is perfect for the setting. Thanks for Pandora.
Well, today is Easter Sunday-oh the excitement! you've resurrected Jesus! oh the magnitude of your glory! It never diminishes. Your glory remains whether your people worship you or not! How beautiful is that. It's strange that I'm feeling this overwhelming blue I probably should have felt on Good Friday. It hit me that you have risen from the dead, and you are not here with us today  but preparing a place for us to be. I can imagine how your disciples felt. It's like "Jesus, don't leave. I still need you." That's how I feel. I felt like during this season of Lent, you were with me. You were next to me. You were aside me. You were there. but now...you're gone. You're risen. I shouldn't be sad. You've risen to redeem Your people! Thank You Abba.

B.Loi
He's still there, God. I don't mean to be distance myself away from him, but maybe just maybe, I still have this desire to join the convent. A while back, I felt like the thought of it was gone, but now it's back. but you know God, he's great. Looking back, I realized the immense healing I found. I don't know how I was able to let go and forgive when he entered my life, but I did. & I'm happy. I really am. Things are okay right now.  Oh! and he cut his hair today. short, clean, & spiffy. pretty handsome son of yours!